Any time I get to thinking too much, and realize that my focus might be more about myself than about others or about God and Jesus, I strive to keep this thought in my mind: "It's not about ME, it's about HIM." As I was driving down the road having that thought yesterday, it occurred to me that too often "I" am wanting to be in the spotlight of something. I'm being selfish. I'm concerned about my wants or my feelings. Not that it is always bad to do so, but too much of it can lead to depression or negative thinking in a hurry. I was thinking, "It's hard for my light to shine for HIM, if I'm too concerned about myself being in the spotlight." I decided to make a little meme to share this thought with others, just in case they, too, had these selfish thoughts from time to time.
I suppose we all do, really. It's easy to get caught up in ourselves, isn't it? I blame mine on hormones, just to be honest, because I'm rarely "down" about anything. When I am it almost always equates to a hormonal issue that's out of whack for a short time. (Oh, the joys of the mid-40's! NOT.) But it makes me think of those who might not ever "get out" of these thoughts....what about them? And what if it wasn't a hormone thing? What could I do to help get the negativity from my mind?
For me, what I've found has been found driving down a highway. When you live in a remote area as I do, you spend a lot of time driving on highways. Often I listen to my favorite Pandora station, but I have a very favorite thing to do, and that is to put it on my iTunes "worship" playlist filled with acapella praise and worship songs from various groups, such as Hallal, The Zoe Group, Narrow Way, and a few others. I LOVE IT! It instantly "peps" me up and makes me feel better!
So now I think, WHY DO I NOT JUST START OUT EVERY DAY WITH THIS PLAYLIST?! Well, I do listen to that playlist often and at random or scheduled times, but I haven't wanted to listen to it all of the time because I wanted it to be different. I wanted that list to be "reserved" in a sense, but now I see that my thinking is WRONG. I NEED those songs each and every day. I NEED to be uplifted every day! MAYBE if I listened to them ever day - at the beginning of every day - it would change the whole day...or at least change ME for the whole day. Who knows? (God.)
So today, I'm starting out with HIM even more so than usual Bible reading as soon as a I wake up and quick prayer before leaving the bed. (I need to work on that part, too.) And as I go through the day, I'll remind myself to keep ME out of the spotlight, to shine brightly for HIM, and strive to always remember that none of this is about me ever.